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>_< the past few days I've been all --- *itchy*. my arms, my legs on my back and my belly. and I've had a few small mosquitoes so I didn't really think anything of it. then, last night, I convinced myself that I must have bedbugs. *facepalm* two o'clock, wide awake, and I'm researching bed bugs, how to get rid of them the symptoms, etc.

of course, I couldn't do anything about it right then, so I positioned myself ( on my stomach ) and tried to go to sleep - and then I realized OMG I'M LYING ON MY STOMACH! MY STOMACH HAS BEEN ITCHING! clearly, this meant = bedbugs. and I freaked myself out so badly I couldn't sleep. of course, when I had *just* dozed off, my laptop on the floor next to the bed made a noise that sounded like the floor creaking and I was wide awake all over again.

I also had a very vivid dream that involved me living in this very apartment, but in New York ( ahahahaha, nobody owns apartments like this in New York, nice one subconcious ) and I had a rampant case of bedbugs and my mom came over ( ... from Denmark? ) when I called her and told her, and she ripped my bed apart ( and in the dream, I of course had as many pillows and covers and other things that could be infested as the Princess and the Pea ) and that same dream somehow involved Elton John responding to an entry I made and calling me lame; and also, I moved in with stellamira's roomie - in my parents' apartment, and I was angsting because it's furnished with a lot of old fashioned furniture, and would I have to throw it out now, and should we just get a completely different apartment all together????

all in all, didn't really sleep much. am still a little freaked out, and yes, I did indeed check my bed this morning for any signs of bedbugs - there appear to be none - but trust me, I am SO changing the linen today anyway, and also my pj's. *facepalm*

no seriously. why do I do this to myself???

in not so other news, the fact that I was so freaked out = the reason why I am wide awake at 7 in the morning. I haven't been out of bed before nine *at least* all week. I guess that's something?

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♥ mom. just talked to her. she was like, 'honey of course you don't have bed bugs, but if it'll make you feel better, change the sheets, and I'll come by tonight and get your laundry'.

and then she told me that I'm probably having an allergic reaction to something, which isn't impossible. the thing about my bedbug theory that's incredibly lame is that I don't have any bites. I'm just itchy. she asked if I've eaten anything a lot for the past few days ( I haven't ) but we figured out it must be the new jeans I've worn ( unwashed ) for a few days. of course it doesn't quite explain why the rest of my body is itchy, but it could be because I usually lotions daily, and I haven't done that in a while, more like two or three times a week.

god I feel so much better, now. :p